1.07.2019

PURPOSE

I escorted the end of 2018 out by conquering my biggest fear and living out my word for the 2018, FEARLESS.

I have (for years) been terrified of the idea of flying in a small plane (mostly, crashing) which seemed like an inevitable end.  I was even reluctant to sit in the plane (on the ground), as it gave me tremendous anxiety.  It was a crippling fear that made my palms sweat and my heart pound uncomfortably, anytime I even thought about it.  I was certain that if I flew in a small plane, it would crash and I would die.  For the past 12 months, I have worked on diffusing this fear and by early Fall, I told my brother that I would go up in the plane with him before the end of the year. I committed to it and continued to work on it

We were in San Diego over the holidays, visiting family and my brother called the day before we were to go spend the day with them and invited hubby and I to go up in his plane. I had a slight moment of hesitation, but I felt ready.  It was December 30th.  YES. I flew and sat in the co-pilot seat in my brother's plane (a Cessna 182) above San Diego's back country.  The day was perfect.  Clear skies and no wind.  I loved it!  It was such a breathtaking flight.  I will admit, a tiny bit of anxiety crept in as we began coming in for the landing, but I shook off the overwhelming fear that has limited me from flying with him.

I worked on other areas that I allow fear to hold me back and realized I allowed it to stifle my creativity.  I entered 2019 feeling more confident and sure of myself in the areas that FEAR had held me captive.

2019 brings a new word.  One that has been pestering me for some time, but especially in the past few months. It has been lingering in the back of my mind, and I have had many discussions about it.   PURPOSE.  What is mine, and how am I to live it out?  I also am choosing to live with PURPOSE, on PURPOSE this year as well.

I know that writing is a huge part of my PURPOSE and most of my focus will be on becoming disciplined in daily writing time.  The venue in which to direct my writing will also be part of my challenge for my PURPOSE for this year.

PURPOSE.  A blank canvas for me to create and make my own.

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